It's probably not important, but try to forgive your stepdad, appreciate whatever he may have done for you in the past, and set aside your disappointments, at least appreciate what he has done for your mom, and accept his weaknesses
Experience the power of doing good to those that even curse us...as per you know who
When you are talking to him, accept that he is an Order and Discipline guy, so use that language with him, and don't freak him out with "third order" stuff.
When you get to the point of someone saying, WTF happened to you, MBTOE will be fulfilling part of it's purpose through your intent
Do a search as well here on OBE4U. viewtopic.php?f=20&t=6741
or check out Reecejones87 on YouTube...lucid dreaming for beginners...and beyond
When you finally hit the books, you will be like a racehorse getting on the track for the first time in the spring
So many good tips in this thread. Don't know how to have time to answer them all.
I guess you are right. He and my mother started a relationship when I was 10 or something. We all moved to a house when I was around 12, and he pretty much immediately became "the boss" in the house, demanding full respect for him. I was like "you are not my father", well you know the drill. He is pretty old, around 70 now, and he is an oldschool guy. I wasn't allowed to have friends over if it wasn't on weekends and so on. I became very much rebellic against him, which of course made things worse, especially when he has been in the police force for his whole life, I started partying, smoking, spraypainting on walls and trains and so on (graffiti is still something I appreciate very much to do, I still do it, but on legal walls nowadays. It sooths the creative mind, I also do regular paintings. Just love the art of it). Anyways, I guess you are right. My mother got rid of my alcoholic dad and got pretty much the opposite, and he has treated her nice.
Speaking to him in the way you are talking about is... I don't know, I tried this. He has made up his mind about me, even if we talk nice to eachother it seems like a game. He is very good in discussions, he has been a very skilled and wellknown interrogator.
Thank you very much for the OBE tips. My usual hemi-sync recordings just don't do much anymore, I get kind of irritated of the same old voices, the same old routines. That is why I'm experimenting with Gnaural now.
I was on a 10-day yoga course a few months ago, because of desperation of trying to get the girl out of my mind. The yoga is called Bikram-yoga. It is a tough kind of yoga, and it really does help one getting rid of the need of kicks and wants, kind of letting one feel okay no matter what. I learned to breathe correctly, reminded me much of the breathing you can hear yourself doing when falling asleep.
I have only once had a real near OBE-experience. I left my body, starting with my feet, releasing the body upwards. I was hanging with my non-physical body upside down, and I only had the very tip of my head left to release. At this point I was terrified, I chickened out. After this I woke up, and my pulse was very high. It was an intense experience, and I immediately regretted that I chickened out. After this I haven't experienced anything close to it. (Now that I think of it, I had a period when I didn't drink coffe, no sugar, not even juices. This may be the missing link) I remembered though, while having it, that it reminded me very much of when I was young, having high fever and lying in the bed watching TV. It was very weird watching the TV from above, knowing my eyes where watching from a straight view. Couldn't never figure it out untill the near OBE-experience. Probably I "was allowed" to leave my body because of the high fever. I wonder why this doesn't happen anymore even if I have high fever.
While talking about high fever, I had about 40 degrees celcius about half a year ago, for several days and it wouldn't go down. I also had an enormous headache. In desperation I tried listening to Hemi-sync, I started to sweat intensly, and after only 45 minutes my fever went down to 38,5 and my headache disappeared. I started wondering if the strength of the immune-system is dependent only of the mental state. Also, I had high fever many times last year, about 4 or 5 times. I had enormous economical problems and was very stressed from time to time, worrying about everything. What do you say about this?
Thanks again for the OBE-tips. I will check your thread out and check some of the youtube videos out.