After my last post about my encounter with a NPMR being, I have finished the MBT trilogy, and am on to "Discovery" for the 2nd time. I have a few questions that I know keep me on the exploration path, but I'm just kinda curious....
I have been doing a varied TM routine (at least 5 times a week since november, in the past few weeks, about 2 times a day), since starting the trilogy last November. I have have since seen results in my awareness of the bigger picture that has been riddden of alot of religious confusion. The thing is, I know I have "fully" gone out of body at least once since November. And have come VERY close about 7 times. I can get to the "coming out" stage when I focus myself really hard at the vibration stage (which happens randomly, about once a month). I'm not fearing it, but I get too excited. I know it's happening, but I just can't figure out whats holding me back from doing it more often. I'm WAY more focused on TM. But I'm almost there with OOBE and I would like to get it down. But my conscious awareness of it just keeps happening at the most random times, and I'm just not sure what's keeping me from doing it more often than it already is. Maybe I still have too many expectations of it? I know I gotta stay patient and it will eventually come...eventually. But do you have any honest recomendations for a better understanding of how to get there more often? I'm open to anything.
If I know my consciousness has gone from my body, and my consciousness has expereinced the bigger picture first hand, why do I not remember what I have experienced through any physical memory of what happened? I know I can credit my personal growth to it, and I KNOW I have been there (in NPMR, as a child, or even recently In NPMR). Maybe I already know the answer, but is my still large ego still clouding my view? Just something I'm kinda throwing around right now. Does that make sense to you? Or am I asking the wrong questions?