I thought I'd share this with you all...

A FAILED TEST

In my dream, I was standing in line at Sea World, waiting to buy some popcorn. I was with a companion, whose face I cannot remember. Look behind you.

A group of small children were queued behind me, excited and eagerly awaiting the moment when they could trade their dollars for Sno-cones and candy floss. My companion pressed something into my palm. You know what to do.

In my hand there was a set of false monster teeth. Cheap and plastic. "Is this a nightmare?" I wondered. "I don't like to be scared."

It's up to you.

I put on the teeth. I turned and growled at the children. Their eyes opened wide with fear.

It felt good not to be scared! For once, I wasn't the one trapped in a nightmare. I bared my fangs and my hands curled into claws. I wanted to laugh. I was elated. I wasn't going to hurt them, just scare them a little.

The children began to cry, and cling to each other in terror. I moved forward, and felt myself grow bigger as my shadow fell across them. My fangs were no longer plastic; they were heavy and sharp. I was strong, and big and fearless. The children trembled and wailed. Suddenly, I felt a pang of regret.

"This isn't right..." I thought. "This isn't what I want..." But it was too late. The children turned and ran, dropping there coins and dollars at my feet. I was alone in the midway. They children were gone.

And so was my companion.


When I awoke from this dream a couple of months ago, I was instantly hit with feelings of regret, shame and sadness. It was very quite a blow to think that I had such monster inside of me. I also had a feeling of failing a test. This dream stayed vividly in my mind for a few days. I was very depressed about it.

I learned that I am more insecure than I thought, more fearful than I thought. I have more desire for power than I thought. I also felt like it was a test to see if I was ready for the responsibility of greater access to NPMR.

The one positive from this dream - at least I know what I need to work on.

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If you learn, it's not a fail.
Love
Bette

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All That Is
what is?
Consciousness.

I LOVE THAT PICTURE!!!
LMAO!

Hopefully I did did learn and I get a chance for a re-test someday soon. Meanwhile, off to NPMR summer school...

Thanks Bette.



:)

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I wouldnt relate your actions in that dream to your personality, ive had something simular where I put somone through a mangle! Horrible, but it seems like there is no free will in a dream, thats not lucid anyway. I think there could be another inturpratation.

Chris

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Oh dear - a mangle? Lol - it's good to know I'm not alone! How did you feel about that dream?

For some reason, I was cast as the villain in this dream. I was not lacking free will so much as I was lacking forethought. I just did what did what felt fun and exciting. Oh well, I have no plans to visit sea-world anytime soon...

:P

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Guilty very guilty, you know when you pull plasticine apart, the victims were like that but only screaming as well, it was to say awful. However it seems confusing, the notion of awarness/freewill in dreams, they are many types of dream, but these types almost seem preconstucted to experience or atleast a percentage of it does anyway. I think that in relation to the fact that we do not always know we are dreaming and if every dream was lucid then we would stop ourselves comiting these deeds.

Yes definatly no trips to sea world for awhile.

lol Chris

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I'm sorry you had such an awful dream! Perhaps when we play the villain in a dream, It gives us a chance to experience remorse and empathy with our "victims", without really hurting anyone in order to do so.

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Sunshine,

Very interesting! I haven't had that experience of "playing" the villian but have been very disappointed in myself for things I have done in dreams.

I might be reaching here but it could have all been a lesson to you not to fear the things in your NPMR experiences that appear to be monsters. Here you were, from all appearances so far not a monster, putting on a set of cheap monster teeth and becoming all scary and stuff. Poor children running frightened from nothing scary at all. Maybe it was a lesson to look at substance more than appearance.

Just one possible interpretation.

Ramon

PS I loved both of your pictures!

Hello:

I think the lesson was: "With power it comes responsibility."

Claudio

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That is a funny dream if you think about it. Like mentioned here before sometimes you feel as if you have no control in dreams, im guessing you did for the most part but that clicked with me becuase I had a weird dream last night where I robbed a bank or something for alot of cash and it seemed as if I appeared in the dream after I had the cash and then was stuck in something not of my doing, I then was in some control and went to go look for a gun shop to prepare for cops chasing me or something?(it was weird) and I remember not being totally in control almost as if I thought about doing something but someone else was controlling the person in my dream and my thoughts were just going to them(but I was in that persons point of view). In my dream I got to a hole in the wall gun shop in which looked like someones house(the layout anyways) and I remember trying to use the money to buy some guns but this man told me the serial numbers on the cash were a certain way and someone could track it so he wouldn't take the money, then I didn't have as much control over the dream body and SHTF so to speak. I dunno why Im telling you guys my weird dream but hopefully it has a point, that of which I cannot tell you now becuase I do not know but thanks for reading haha.

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