I thought I'd share this with you all...
A FAILED TEST
In my dream, I was standing in line at Sea World, waiting to buy some popcorn. I was with a companion, whose face I cannot remember. Look behind you.
A group of small children were queued behind me, excited and eagerly awaiting the moment when they could trade their dollars for Sno-cones and candy floss. My companion pressed something into my palm. You know what to do.
In my hand there was a set of false monster teeth. Cheap and plastic. "Is this a nightmare?" I wondered. "I don't like to be scared."It's up to you.
I put on the teeth. I turned and growled at the children. Their eyes opened wide with fear.
It felt good not to be scared! For once, I wasn't the one trapped in a nightmare. I bared my fangs and my hands curled into claws. I wanted to laugh. I was elated. I wasn't going to hurt them, just scare them a little.
The children began to cry, and cling to each other in terror. I moved forward, and felt myself grow bigger as my shadow fell across them. My fangs were no longer plastic; they were heavy and sharp. I was strong, and big and fearless. The children trembled and wailed. Suddenly, I felt a pang of regret.
"This isn't right..." I thought. "This isn't what I want..." But it was too late. The children turned and ran, dropping there coins and dollars at my feet. I was alone in the midway. They children were gone.
And so was my companion.When I awoke from this dream a couple of months ago, I was instantly hit with feelings of regret, shame and sadness. It was very quite a blow to think that I had such monster inside of me. I also had a feeling of failing a test. This dream stayed vividly in my mind for a few days. I was very depressed about it.
I learned that I am more insecure than I thought, more fearful than I thought. I have more desire for power than I thought. I also felt like it was a test to see if I was ready for the responsibility of greater access to NPMR.
The one positive from this dream - at least I know what I need to work on.