Thank you Montana. I made it, 50. I clearly remember thinking about this day over 35 years ago, and now here I am. I did it. I get two horrorscopes as I am on the cusp of Libra and Scorpio so I cry after sex. Just kidding, I just made that up actually, Libra cry easy and well, we all know what they say about Scorpio's now, don't we? I live in a house full as my twins are Scorpios too.
Love
Bette

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Consciousness.

Do you ever drink at Tommy Ts Bette? ;-) I google earthed your location, acording to it you live in a crossway, howcome you dont get hit by cars?

I read that "I googled your earth location", same difference I guess. I used to bowl at Tommy Ts when it was the bowling alley. The main streets don't line up in this town (bad planning) so getting hit isn't a problem.
Love
Bette

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Happy birthday Bette, and best wishes to you!

I am also Libra. My birthday is September, 23, and it is on a border line Virgo - Libra. I always though about myself as Libra. I have my horoscope done only once, and it was for fan, not to look seriously into my future. A lady said if I would be born more close to a midnight, i.e. several hours early, but still on the same date, I would be Virgo. I tend to trust her, because my horoscope is coming to be a true.

Lena

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Hi Lena,
Thank you. I think this is it, a birthday that had had an effect on me mentally. I had moved out at 15 (back in at 18 for a year), was already driving at 16 although I didn't get my license until 17, 18 wasn't anything that changed anything, I was basically burnt out on bars by the time I turned 21 mostly. Twenty-five, 30, forty, none of them had any mental effect. Now I am 50, heck, I think I might be growing up. That is the effect the day had on me, now to just put that thought into action. To remove all child-ish and only let the child-like remain to pull my strings (meat puppet like). Thank you again Lena, getting to meet you next February in Campbell, CA is going to be lovely.

I've never had an astrological chart done, it would be interesting.
Love
Bette

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It seems to me that a turning point of my views and awareness did happen around my 50th birthday. It may be 49th or 51th though. I think we become aware of our ever changing nature, since we are never the same, we are on a constant path of change day in, day out. I looked in a dictionary - an idiom 'day in, day out' is describing a boredom. I don't mean boredom, I think of movement, which never comes to the end. A pace of it can be slow, almost intangible until our development will reach a turning point, when a shadow will merge with a light. It will continue to be a gray area, but it will not be black and white anymore.

Lena

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Thank you Lena.
Love to you and yours,
Bette

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Consciousness.

My 50th year has been special to in terms of understanding !
Does this mean 50 is the new 21!

Wow

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Probably. :)
Love
Bette

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Swedishnovice, I have plenty of Binaural Beats or Hemi-Sync I would like to share.

Though, the file sizes are to great (20-30 MB) to be send by e-mail. If someone knows a host with an acceptable upload speed I will upload them for for all of you, to your convenience.

I know this is extraneous information but, when I was holding one of the cats that has me up to my ear today, had him on my shoulder making body contact with him by petting him, and he was purring so nicely, I thought of grabbing the other cat that has me and putting him to my other ear as a sort of binary beat unplugged. I was going to pm YouAreDreaming to see if he could put that in visual data for us, now I'll just say it here. Can you Ian (or other artistically inclined of you), make a cartoon of that?
Love
Bette

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Consciousness.

How kind! Rapidshare is a site dedicated to uploading files for free. If you also could give me some info on how to use them I would love it! Thanks alot!

I knew of Rapidshare, but always thought you needed Premium to upload :p

I have (for a start) uploaded the most productive one. A Theta brainwave inducing Binaural beats mp3.

It's basically a 30 min. long sound file, which will make it easier to reach the theta state.

Generally about theta state:

"Theta Brainwaves
Theta brainwaves occur in the 4 to 7.9 cps frequency range. To the non-meditator, Theta is primarily experienced as the mental state just prior to dropping off to sleep, and also REM (rapid eye movement) sleep.

But to the experienced meditator with a well-established Alpha state, Theta is often characterized by a peaceful sense of bliss and well-being marked by spontaneous creativity and deeply meaningful personal or transcendental imagery."
http://www.quantum-self.com/index.php?s=theta

An interesting article about these different states: http://www.healingmusic.org/Library/Art ... usness.asp

Theta entrainment is also used to reach the "point consciousness" state, a very productive state where much can be done. I think should be one of the goals with the use of the sound file and generally with meditation.

What I recommend with the sound file is, make sure you won't be interrupted. Have some stereo-headphones which are comfortable to have on while lying in bed. You can sit up, but it might be easier to relax the whole body in lying position. Make it completely dark, and don't have to much cloths on when in the bed. When in position, close your eyes, relax, take deep breaths with your nose and exhale with the mouth for 3-5 minutes. Try to calm your mind, relax, empty the mind of thoughts. Don't dwell into the noisy thoughts, let them go. Relax, go with the flow of the sound. Enjoy the blackness, the quietness. Your little own free-time with your own consciousness. After some minutes you will feel a subtle change in the mind, or strange sensations in the body. That's fine. You should soon reach the point consciousness state. The state of no thoughts, the the void, just you at the BEING level. This is a very peaceful and blissful state, you won't forget the experience of it.

Keep trying, it should get easier a long the way. Try to then meditate in noisy conditions, outside, or just when you want.

Good luck!

(the file can only be downloaded 10 times from rapidshare)
http://rapidshare.com/files/297893636/Theta.mp3.html

Thanks alot! Can I go Out of body with this sound? The state of creativity I have experienced, I would call it that however. I am a amateur musician and a newbie songwriter, when in this state I tend to think of music and the best stuff ever comming out of my mind is in that state, too bad I cant remember a 5 minute song.

Thanks alot!!

Yes, as you are only consciousness, detached from the PMR (physical matter reality).
Your intent is what will move you. Have the intent.

I think I am correct when I say Tom and his fellow comrades at The Monroe Institute often went "out of body" from this state.

I will meditate with it now, before falling asleep, goodnight :)