I'm serious. I have a couple hundred of them lying around already. I am a scientist who many will believe has gone new age. It's a long story which anyone can read at their leisure on my blogs but the short version is I went through 2 years of Trigemenial Neuralgia and I couldn't use pain killers in sufficient doses because of side effects and the mind altering drugs turned me into Mr. Hyde. I had to resort to Acupuncture and meditation to live with the pain. It took two years of misdiagnosis and using me for a drug testing guinea pig before I underwent a balloon ablation to repair it and my pain was gone. That happened in October of 2010. I was left with the ability to deeply meditate and the ability to see indigo light which for now is my guide. I'm still figuring that out(Remember I am not new age). I tell you all this because that is what gave me the ability to create a universe in graphic form only. My garage isn't big enough to hold a real one.

The instructions along with a lot of other stuff can be found on my blog page There is a lot of text above the instructions that offers some explanation to the graph and the base equation that needs expanding follows the graph. There are other suggestions for those of you who love your math. If you don't have the math skills to pursue this share it with a friend that does. There is a new math family based in non-congruency that any daring mathematician might want to dabble with. I want a lot of people to pursue this and see where it goes. If it turns out to be the rantings of a demented mind recovering from two years of excruciating pain so be it.

On a new note I happened on the link to Stephen Hawkings conclusion that we get one shot at fixing the Universe to get it right. Man a lot of people are messing up if that's the case but thinking that is all there is has kept the man alive long past anything considered normal for his condition. Let me say I worship the man. I worked for NASA for 11 years and how could I not. If his mind wasn't so busy, his powers of meditation would be off the chart. The thing is he is right. This physical body we now have will never exist again unless there are parallel universes and he does believe there are so I do not understand why he would not conclude, if we have lived once we could live again in an exact replica of this universe. In infinity all things are possible. I think I have an inkling. Who would want to live through his condition again but only he knows the answer there. What I chastise him for is the fact he turns a blind eye to Quantum physics. This body we have will never exist again (maybe) but our energy will go on. It may retain nothing of any physical life it has shared and it may never have another physical life but it goes on and if there is a final destination it will be there in the time it takes for it to leave the physical body as there will be no sense of time in energy form. That's the thing about out of body and near death experiences, you aint dead. No senses, no time.

I happen to believe our atmosphere keeps our energies on this planet and we will need to take that into consideration when we travel in space or our energy may wander all over the place in the eons to come. I believe we reincarnate and I believe I have the facts to back it up. So I look for Mr. Hawking to return and accomplish God knows what in his next life. Probably won't be much because he hasn't recognized his spirit so odds are all that ability and knowledge stays with the body he currently has. That is a tragedy and it is one far too many of my scientific colleagues fall victim to.

Ok I think I am under 60k so I ask you to please create your own universe and amaze your friends and never forget, "Always choose the least chaotic path. When that path is not clear seek the advice of others."

Hi Capt_Infinity,

Some serious stuff you have going there :-)

Can you take a picture or scan the graphical universe you are talking about?

With your interest in such things, you ought to read MBT or at least see a few of the videos on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/twcjr44 It might be helpful, in getting a good grip on reality, in a scientific and logical way.. if that is what you want.
Can you explain this a bit more? What information can you gather from this indigo light, are you able to get information on someone's else "physical body" or "emotional body"? In a pragmatic sense, seeing only one colour limits the complexity of the information you can get, so you might want to experiment with that :)

When you are in that state, use your intent to manipulate this non-physical perception, and assign meaning to different representations. Such experimentation should be fun for you!

Hi Capt'n,

You've definitely tapped into something there. I tried to follow the instructions but as most know here who know me, I'm not much of a math guy. I'm a word guy, but I must tell you when I tapped into IT I got the same kind of stuff and it felt like I had the market cornered on something. I think SS is right and you should read My Big TOE because I think it will help you put your ideas in perspective. You know something for sure, but I think perhaps, and I say perhaps notice, you are being fed something that you or really anyone still relegated to the physical brain would not be able to completely make full use of. I hope that doesn't insult you for that is not my intent at all. I'm hopefully trying to encourage you. It may be that I don't subscribe to every word of MBT but I have to admit it sure helped me gain insight into my own insights. Nice to see you out here.

Yours,
--beau

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The horse I am riding now has Trigemenial Neuralgia. He has a fly mask with a nose guard and I have a nose net for his bridle. He is also on melatonin and a magnesium supplement. With out all these things he throws his head up and down and after awhile he gets almost violent about it. With the supplements and nose stimulants his head is completely still.

My daughter just, within the last 15 minutes, brought home Arthur's new prescription for Carbamazepin for trigeminal neuralgia which may be the answer to his long standing tongue pain. It interacts with his seizure meds in a way that may be useful, and with two of his other medications in ways that may or may not be good. Co-incidents, probably not. :)

I'll check out your blog.
Love
Bette

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Capt_Infinity,

Your blog is very interesting. A lot of what you write resonates with me. I have to agree with my peers here and suggest you read My Big TOE. It may help you fill in some of the blanks that I am seeing in your blog. I was piecing together lots of information for years, also followed my own intuitive process and reading TOE finally brought some logic to the whole mess. Might help to have a little nudge or another perspective. I look forward to more of your contributions here!

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Hi Bette:

If he has a strong spiritual awakening be careful with the doses. I took that drug and I ended up paranoid. When we dropped the levels it no longer relieved my pain. I believe the center for our spiritual energy resides in our brain stem. The clues are diseases of the brain stem normally do not affect cognitive powers like diseases of the conscious mind do. I have no idea how the drugs will interact. Sometimes the effects of one counters the effect of the other. I am not a Doctor but I don't think the nerves in the tongue lie on the trigeminial bundle but Carbamazepin desensitizes nerve response in all of your body. It is a side effect of the drug they use to treat conditions like TN.

I don't know if they do balloon ablations on horses but I didn't know horses had trigeminial bundles either. Most mammals probably do but I hadn't even thought about it until I read your post. I wonder if he has gained the ability to deeply meditate and has a guide because of his TN?

I believe mankind is the only species on this planet that can expand it's spiritual side and reincarnate but I know there are those that will not agree with that.

I do need to read Big Toe and plan on it but I do have my own guide AKA indigo light. In meditation, for those of you who have had to take the recognized paths to deep meditation, I don't believe conscious thought is involved, at least not yours. Isn't it similar to mine, there is no conscious thought, you just know things? I have had my psychic abilities since I was a child. I misused them and I either shut myself down or I was shut down. It took deeply meditating to get away from my pain to reawaken them. I only see my guide as indigo light which sometimes includes the aura of people who are in deep distress or what I believe are the energies of those who do not have physical bodies. The thing I have noticed is they don't seem to pay any attention to people unless there is an electromagnetic field involved like a running automobile or a computer or a radio and especially set top cable TV convertors. By far they love automobiles and I see many of them alongside the road and they love to follow cars and appear to be drawn to people in the car. I never see them around parked cars with or without people.

When I experience Indigo light with my eyes lightly closed or at dark when there are lights that dimly light the shadows I see shapes usually round but not always and they are in specific locations. I can turn my head away and not see them and turn back and they are still in the same location provided they are not moving. I can track them if they are moving with my eyes open in low light conditions or or my eyes closed lightly. Incandescent lighting is the best source. Sunlight is to bright if there are no clouds in the sky.

When it is my guide the light comes from above me or sometimes from the left or right side and it occupies at least 70% of my visual field. It never comes from below me. The hue is always the same but the intensity varies with it being the brightest when I am questioning information until I accept it whether I agree with it or not.

I am a scientist not a healer or an adviser so that may be why I getting mostly scientific information. I do read peoples emotions very easily but I cannot read minds nor can I tell them what the future holds or what is the best course of action. I don't have a clue. My guide tells me my job, other than doing what I can to minimize mayhem or chaos, is get my message out. Since I am not the head of any science department and have done most of my work in communications I have no real credibility with scientific groups so I have to pick on my new spiritual brothers and sisters. I need a breakthrough to get sciences attention and I am working on one I believe will. My expertise in this life is communications and I just realized my blog is called Please Listen. LoL I did not make the connection until I wrote this..

Sometimes the pain effects his penis, and hands. He stopped complaining about the penis when I and his old doctor thought he wanted to be circumcised because that is how he was indicating the pain pulling on it three years ago, and we explained to him what circumcision was. He is on 100mg twice a day, and I know it will effect his Prozac, Zypreza, and Dilantin so am even more aware of all this. He doesn't talk which makes it hard, but he does scream with the pain, and at this point him hurting my is how I know when it is unbearable for him. Sometimes he just sits in a bath, putting more water in every so often, for a hour at night. I think that is helpful. One of the new doctors he has seen thought he might have a cist on his brain stem, how does that figure it, if you know Capt_, and thank you for the information.
Love to you and yours,
Bette

PS He has been taking my hand and basically trying to pull it apart in his two hands. And he also acts like he has to get out of that body, he pushes, and needs to be "squished" against the wall as it relieves something, some pressure in him. Does any of that sound familiar?

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Hi Bette:

I am not a Doctor and I can't imagine anything worse than what you and he are going through. Here is what I believe and again I am not a medical professional. Diseases of the conscious mind like Alzheimers do not affect the spiritual energy we all have. What they do is affect the ability of our spiritual energy to communicate with our conscious brain and the outside world. In this case the brain stem does sound like it is involved and I would trust the Doctor who says the problem lies in the brain stem and treating conditions in the brain stem is very difficult and science has a lot to learn. His energy is being affected by his condition. Maybe they can find the cyst and treat it. Let us hope so. It is a very complex area which controls how our conscious mind and body interact. Trauma in the brain stem affects how our body responds to everything so don't be surprised by anything he responds to and how he responds to it. I wish I could tell you more. I hope you are seeking the counsel of friends and family and professionals if you feel you need them. Too many times the people who are trying to comfort those who are ill are overlooked and they can suffer as much as the ill person so I hope you have people you can talk to especially ones who have found their spirit.

Thanks Capt_, and I do. It's the MBT forum people, and having taken in the MBT book information to add to what I already had figured out. We (my twins and I) were basically flying out here alone (not knowing we weren't alone) until 2008 when I found MBT, and was able to fill in the missing pieces of the puzzle, and the MBT people. Understanding "all this" makes it "easier" (for me, me me me) somehow, and also this Life Experience Packet seems to be one of challenges so I am starting to realize I am to take some of them on (change things) rather than just experience them. So, I am basically trying to create my own universe.
Love
Bette

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