It’s not easy living with a condition you feel handicaps your potential and growth. It’s frustrating, confusion and down-right annoying at times. I know by personal experience.
Meditation does help. Positive thinking does help. Living in the moment, feeling joy, do help. Having good friends to talk, not so much about anti-depressats, how hard it can be, etc., but friends are there for fun, for bonding, for a sense of belonging. Friends are meant to talk about mundane things, having fun moments. That helped me alot.
You gotta have an ambition, a drive and a dream to heal, get better, move on and become what you really are at your fullest potential.
I’ve been very low in emotional levels, very. Hard-core depressed and all the cocktail. But I always dreamed, day-dreamed, wished for me to heal, feel better and move on. After much struggling, I got much better.
MBT has tremendous valuable information that will help you. Reading the book, is a must. Its not the holy grail, but it points tremendous clues as to what reality is all about, what consciousness is all about. It’s very valuable and if you take the time to read it, understand it, live and experience it, you’ll see the results. I already feel the results of Tom’s logical, skeptic but open-mind pragmatic views of consciousness. There is no flah-flah. Direct, concise and very logically undeniable.
That being said, it’s a tough road. Very. Changing ones being is extremely difficult. You have to deal with core, deep emotions, ideas, genes, DNA, consciousness and the lessons, hard one -_-, the conscious big picture gives you.
Take life as a lesson. You the student. Learn as much as possible. Every single second of your life is an opportunity to grow. When your time is up, like it does to everyone, its possible you’ll have regrets, we all do to some extent, and we’re young, so imagine then. But if you look back, acknowledge the lessons you passed, those you failed, those you understood and those you didn’t. Having of what one does can be achieve in many ways by effort, dedication and perseverance. I say that, also to remind myself ^_^, because its somewhat true. If you applied authentically, honestly and humility to learn, observe and grow by respecting your limitations and defaults, you can be proud, and you’ll then give full credit to your talents and qualities. To be proud is to surpass one’s fear, to forgive, to accept and to love.
Love means understanding, compassion, respect, dignity and is the fundamental « law » of the higher consciousness system. Martin Luther King based his civil right movement on love. Show love when confronted to hate, even if it costs your life. Non-violent resistance is also synonymous with love. Non-violent resistance is what Gandhi, M.L. King and Mandela lived. You’d agree they were great man.
The best form of meditation is « abandon ». It means not resisting, it means trusting the higher consciousness system and listening to it message, giving to you by lessons, clues, challenges and by your efforts to improve your quality of consciousness. To « abandon » is tremendously hard. It’s an emotional state, not intellectual. Intellectual experience leads to dualism, a battle with oneself, providing often more than not, frustrating, illusions, etc. Your mental is the fruit of your automatisms created by your robotic, slave, automatic, cruise control being. It can be very hard to get rid of your mental. Its a trap, a prison. But accept it as a thing you have, not a thing that controls you, manipulates you, defeats you or makes you ill. I was tremendously ill, I’m still ill, but I’m making leaps of progress.
Getting the right info on all these things is the right attitude to have. This forum is plenty of it, very good and valuable. Diversify your sources of information, not just MBT. Why? Because by looking elsewhere, what I often felt was the quality of MBT. Looking elsewhere gives you opportunities to compare, and say, ok this author says this, the other that, some disagree, other agree, okay and MBT tells it in a different and what I found out is that MBT answers many of the questions I had, not all of ‘em, its not perfect, and MBT doesn’t pretend to be.
Anyhow, good luck on your journey. It’s hard, so grab a shield, a sword and move in this world of possibilities, joy, opportunities and beautiful landscapes as a warrior. Defend yourself, from yourself, from others and fight with courage against your fears with a joyous heart. Don’t take yourself too seriously, let things be ridicule, funny and out of hands. Accept defeat with grace, shame, anger and disappointed. When you win, remember the bad times and when you lose, remember the good times. Gives a sense of perspective.
Both warriors, good or evil, enter a duel and both will die for their freedom. Both know the danger, both can handle pain, blood and death. Being good mean defending what is truly precious to you. If you’re like me, you health is your most precious thing.
Enjoy. Good luck and I’ll pray for you as much as I can. If I find you out there, lol.
Courage is not the absence of fear,
Courage is the mastery of fear.