Don't confuse the model with reality,...Tom said that, or something very similar early in the first book,...he made us repeat it if I recall, and I'm grateful to him for putting that little memory device there. I really like Tom's TOE, it explains more that takes away, it is harmonious, it's logical and orderly without being confining...[side note: I saw the thread on David Icke, and if I may answer here, I like David Icke's TOE because that was how I found Tom's TOE, and therefore while I may disagree with some of what David says,...I owe him and his TOE a big debt of gratitude].
Tom also told us to above all be skeptical,...which is easy to forget sometimes because I really like his TOE,...it's interesting as hell...it made so much more sense than religion, and somehow explained religion,...it was thrilling to watch the world change as I learned more about his TOE,....In fact out of everything he wrote, the only thing that bothered me was these elements of bureaucracy that seemed to pop up in a couple spots....not even as the main point of what he was saying,...but it really made my skin bristle, found the thought to be discouraging,...and so began exploring again,...quit smoking,...quit sugar,....looked up all the acronymns.....meditated more,....read books, videos,...no caffeine,.....more reading,...thought deeply,...chanted....explored fears,......researched......and it almost felt like I was making negative progress,...whatever the hell progress was anyway,...never had an OBE,....really wanted one,.....mediation got boring,....got frustrated and mad even,....almost threw it all back...screw this....blah...blah...
...and then in desperation I made my own TOE, almost as if accident, and thought I had lost my mind...how dare I? I'm not Tom, or David or anyone!....and then, as I was trying determine how I could test if I was crazy,....I got it,...brilliant!
Tom's TOE and every other TOE I had every learned about had done their jobs and I didn't need them anymore, they are after all just models, and not reality,...I think Montana suggested that someone should say Map instead of Mind and Map Instructions or Driving Directions instead of Thoughts,...so Montana, I'd like to thank your TOE too....that was a seriously huge help. Other's too,..this forum is full of treasure.
The cool thing about my TOE is it doesn't really conflict with the TOE's I've studied. It's more like my account of a movie,...my telling you the plot will be different than someone else's because my viewpoint is different. I notice different things,...different things matter to me,....but you could tell what movie I was describing. I hope that this post, as an account of the movie, can help or encourage,...or do some amount of good.
The details of my TOE don't matter as I'm sure that it's not even close to being correct just as I'm sure it doesn't explain much more than my little spot in the sun,...I think it's close enough that I can follow it until I need a newer, more accurate one to answer the questions I haven't even thought of yet.