Welp, almost a year now after living a very unbalanced life where most of my time was spent in NPMR or trying to get there...

I've finally been forced back after a year of intense "physical" living which has been the most enjoyable time of my lifetime package to date. Basically, I got "sick" (intense sore throat was the foundation) which is rare an I rationalized it being...
- Me smoking and or occasional mdma usage (wanted to see how it compares to my normal state which was very similar)
- Hookah that really alters your awareness
- Promiscuious behavior (making out with 7-8 different women in. Night)

Regardless, it was an opportunity because the next 4 days was horrible phyiscal pain and on a consciousness level LOTS OF OPPORTUNITY.

I had about 3-4 intense experiences on DAY2 which as I clicked in and out of realities it reached a point where I actually thought I had sleeped walk to party and cameback without knowing because there was no way I could be in this state. Then I went back in and WOOSH its like I relived a mdma experience as images flash by and as I woke up I still felt this state.

"ITS ALL JUST DATA"

I stared doing what I called "consciousness sessions" where i'd simply play around with my consciousness seeing what I can do with it. An low and behold turns out I have pretty good focus/intent which I always DOUBTED since I almost always fall asleep while meditating which TOM said if your falling asleep from meditation its lack of focus.

HOWEVER, I was falling asleep due to BOREDOM. These consciousness sessions I rarely ever drifted from "tool generation" and I always caught myself when I was losing focus. Which then made me realize DUH...

In physical life, boredom is something I have a huge dislike for, at the slightest sign of boredom I will change the current state of my reality whether internally or externally.

Overall, it made me realize/learn instead of MEDITATING I should be actually exploring my consciousness. Its now much more worthwhile to spend 1-3hrs simply exploring my consciousness instead of focusing on "phyiscal" fluff.

AE,

I don't know what to make of you. I begin to wonder if you might be a 'troll' as they are called. You just drop in from time to time and make posts. The ones you have made this trip are not well connected to what you have posted before. It seems like this time you are concentrating on being the cool guy who is the center of what's going on. Previously you projected other images. I am not sure if it is worth it so I have not gone through all of your nearly 50 intermittent posts to get a better feel for you and your interactions.

In the 3 posts you have made tonight, I keep noticing that you always seem to be taking. Is this your idea of a good interaction with others? Of interacting with respect to the free will of others? You say you never buy alcohol I believe. You took this woman's cigarettes and did not even smoke any. Are you claiming to be able to be drunk 6 nights a week and still function at a job where you can make the money to live in NY city where you claim to live. You don't live cheap there and enjoy the 'life style' you claim. Do you have interactions where you are not taking from people but rather giving? Is that your whole way of living, taking things from others?

You claim meditation success, claim extensive NPMR interaction and you claim reading MBT multiple times. Now you claim all this drinking and being such a 'live wire'. Your profile when joining indicates that you work as an actor. Are you just 'acting' as what ever strikes your fancy at the time you choose to visit us? Putting on all of these accepting types who assume that you are telling the truth? With all of these inconsistencies, you as I say, sound like a troll who is here only for your amusement in posting. Have you any comments? I may be wrong and without going through all of your posts I am not sure, but you are certainly providing me with very inconsistent and artificial, contrived, 'vibes' with this latest incarnation on the board. It seems that I have asked you similar questions before and never received really satisfactory answers. Please clarify the situation if you would be so kind.

Ted

He is a liar. He just casually drops that he made out with 7-8 different women. Yeah, right.

Apparently he spends more time in NPMR than Tom. He must be a rare fellow! Plus he has time to do stuff like get wasted at parties and philosophize ruefully. Wow, this guy is special!

I love how he is so great at exploring the LCS but he gets "bored" while meditating, which actually means falling asleep. Talk about advanced!

Ted, Advaita,

that's about the impression I get.

Making out with 8 different women a night. Even if it were true: how is this love and low entropy? This is ego and giving a sh*t about others - and nothing else.

Changing your exterior due to being bored also is a sign of high entropy consciousness.

What is boredom? It is the inability to accept the present moment. The inability to accept one's own inner emptiness - which then in turn needs to be filled up with: party, drugs, women, cars...

The whole idea of e.g. Zen-Buddhism is to eridicate the feeling of "being bored". Yogis in the Himalayas sit in caves for 5 years in a row without getting bored...

But you, flying around with the angels, fall asleep while meditating. I don't buy it.

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Which is ever greater and more subtle than the world."

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Was this in PMR or a Lucid Dream type experience?

Hi MicroGuy, and good question. :)
Love to you and yours,
Bette

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what is?
Consciousness.

Let's hope it was NPMR!

Can you imagine all the saliva all over everything ???

Yuck~ Where's my Windex ???

Apparently some of you haven't been drunk at a college bar in some time! :) Although 7-8 does seem very high. haha

Actually I must admit that it is an experience that I missed out on, even back in the day. Not one of my great regrets for missed opportunities however as it lacked appeal.

Ted

Yea, it's definitely not something to be bragging about on the internet. I'm very proud to say I don't drink alcohol like I did in college.

So being bored and doing something about it in PMR makes you high entropy? I'm not so sure about that.

What if you have nothing going on in your life to stimulate your senses so you decide to "sit in a cave and meditate" as Tom would say and you connect with the LCS and get those pleasant feelings...eradicating your boredom, are you now low entropy because you have no PMR stimulation but feel no boredom?

Don't think so.


Or maybe it's a lack of the type of sensory input from your environment that causes you to feel positive emotions.


This almost sounds like the typical religious demonizing of earthly pleasures. You can have all of those things and still be a well developed soul. Alan Watts was an alcoholic after all.

Stimulation is stimulation. Whether you're being stimulated by PMR toys/experiences or NPMR data, you're still being "stimulated". Being stimulated by one or the other doesn't make you high entropy or not.


Does that mean that those Zen-Buddhists suddenly become low entropy because they learn to connect to the LCS and get thrills from there as opposed to getting thrills from PMR life?

Don't think so.

Being bored is probably why we are experiencing PMR. What a scheme to come up with, entertainment mixed with the necessity to evolve. The system was probably bored with its slow progress, and its intention to evolve and not be bored led to PM realities. The complexity of the system at large is beyond comprehension, in our present state of mind. Being bored here is a easy one to figure out, that's the feedback that says time to get on the ball and get rolling on to the purpose. Sabby