I thought I did post a comment to Ted's suggestion that I be the moderator (like I would if we were all in a room together) at least I tried to -- it's not here so it somehow got lost. This is the gist of it:
If we were all together in a room, we would have lots of visual cues to know when somebody had something to say, or really wants to speak, or was having a problem, or was done making their point, or was bored and wanted to move on.... etc. With audio only, all that visual information is lost and that loss will make us less organized, responsive, and sensitive to whats going on with each other. That is why I suggested a moderator. However, with a little prior coordination about the sort of questions, about when is it time to move on, what to say to let the rest know that your hand is vigorously waving in the air, or, most importantly, that you are just pausing in the middle of something to find the right word and it is not time for someone else to jump in yet. If we can come up with some effective protocols/rules that work for audio, then we can moderate ourselves.
Thanks Tom. I understand what you are saying.
Each time that I attempt to formulate a set of protocols/rules for this event I arrive at the question of what is the core purpose of this event. Trying to answer that takes me to a personal place. After doing some honest introspection there, I realized that a good portion of my drive to take part in such an event is to find some sort of feedback, validation, support, or comradeship in this venture of life and pudding tasting. I have had some amazing eureka moments since reading MBT. Many of these things are concepts that I fully appreciated and "knew" for as long as 15 years prior. Only now though by embracing experience am I starting to understand
some of them deeply. This has strongly validated to me the purpose of this reality and the idea of growth through experience. Knowing something means nothing as compared to understanding it deeply through experience. It honestly makes me feel out of place in my environment at times, perhaps a bit lonely. When I try to think of my own questions that I would like to ask, I realize that I really don't have any burning questions about the model. True there are things that I do not fully understand, but honestly (perhaps selfishly) my questions are about me, my experiences, and my growth. The full understanding of the details, it seems, will follow the growth. This analogy seems fitting: I have heard about what red is, I have a pretty good understanding of what red is, I have even started to see glimpses of it. Now, I feel like I need some feedback about those glimpses of red and guidance that might help lead me to more. Maybe this is the case for the others as well, I'm not sure. I also can't fully say right now if this drive is based on ego, a strong desire to grow, or both.
Having said all of that, what does the view look like from the outside of this thought process? Is this a concept that would seem to be fitting or appropriate for such an event?
For those who were participating, how does this compare to your own drive to take part in such an event?
Thanks for listening.