Negatively I stare at my big toe... methinks its a little ingrown rn...
10 years ago you took over my mind, and it is forcing me to become a better person at the being level... which I DO NOT APPRECIATE! Why can't I be like the other human morons? I didn't even know what ego was before your trilogy! thanks a lot! Me and him were doing JUST FINE before you came along!
Why has the Wisdom of the Immortals been thrust upon me?
Why has MBT given me all knowledge about everything?
I feel like the Big Cheese is just small cheese now!
With all of the answers to life's mysteries (intellectually), I now know TOO much. thanks tom. I only bought your bloody book because I thought you were holding out on me in your London lecture. Buy the book and get the REAL story.
Look. All I wanted was to hear about your crazy flights battles and intrigues in NMPR. I want safe easy interesting entertainment at a distance, maybe some LIGHT astral projection for myself, but that was it! I WANT cool! wow! gee whiz! from a weird wizard! I did not sign up for a freaking intensive 24 hour a day self improvement class! No thank you! Way too much work! "Learning is supposed to be fun" my auntie.
I DO NOT WANT to personally inspect my nasty fears and try and murder my own ego(oh yeah. so fun.) -as YOU recommend.
I want to feed my ego PIZZA.
I want to eat SUGAR ("oh no, but what about its effect on my consciousness?"-- ah fooie!)
I don't want to worry about finding THE ONE! I want many women! without having to worry about my freaking SPIRIT GUIDES watching me in the act and waiting to smite me with their disapproval!
I never wanted to learn the term "horsepucky" ... I really didn't.
I do not want to be held "responsible" for this knowledge (as you say I am). I am quite spent and burnt out by this here ENTROPY REDUCTION.
Ohhh surrre you SAY its a "game" and all, oh yeah, look, its so much fun to "grow up" into "big consciousness kid" blah blah blah. On one hand you say that evolution is patient and we have all the time in the world, but then on the other hand you say that the cost of not growing is SEVERE, yet you are very vague and ominous about it! Its just the ole "oh don't let the antirats get you!"
I mean come on. What does that even mean?...
Why CANT I have a large set of dearly held BELIEFS like everyone else!--- they are convenient! You say that LCS is NOT my Mother?! That it will not soothe and coddle me and sing sweet lullabies? BOLLOCKS! If it were TRULY a system of low entropy LOVE, then it would make some time to cuddle this guy here! Then I might be more interested in it! Show me some love! You say its a "carrot and stick" method... Yet I want cake! Seriously? Veggies as my reward, oh yay.
Wheres the humanity in all this?
-What am I, living in an eternal clothes dryer with no way out? eternal tumbling down the rabbit hole of consciousness with no definite answers, only "probability distributions?"
You try and convince me that being a bacteria on the skin of the large LCS animal is a pleasure? I don't want to know any of that! My ego wants to remain very large and happy and delusional! It doesn't want to know that I am completely insignificant in the large scale of things! Pish-Posh!
Did you ever think about, that maybe I WANT to "smoke ciggies in the bathroom with my friends" for this whole 'experience packet' of mine?
Maybe this "Jake", maybe all he WANTS TO DO is try and impress pretty Suzie over there?
Cant you just let this grown man play in his little sandbox and leave me alone?
Bring on AI Guy!
Maybe he can give can supply me with the Blue Pill!
In the form of a microchipped brain,
and I can go back to my ignorant bliss thank you very much.
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