this thread is already getting huge, now wanna start adding my stuff to it, maybe some information can b shared that is helpful to others. I was always thinking my doing is not something worth mentioning, but that intent to regularly writing it down here might help make things clearer for me:
My meditation is more like an off on relationship. As I feel a heavyness in my head or just feel tired or in any way irritated I sometimes close my eyes or rather do it with opened eyes as somehow the not controlled looking of my eyes is calming and distracting. As I do this I can contemplate very fast and get a Meditation state almost everywhere. Then asking myself without telling the sentence intellectually the communication with my intuition or guides or whatever is very fast.
I still got problems discerning whats from me and whats not. I'll keep having the Intent to be loving and caring and other thoughts and interpretations that don't go that way are more of a doorway of understanding. I am currently in a phase where a lot of disturbance can occur in mindspace which I just ignore. It is probably due to my inconsistent sport attitude and undisciplined manner in many ways. That is one of my facets this life, continously stopping when there is some kind of hurlde to overcome. Really hard for me to stay motivated for specific things. Even stuff I love like music or writing.
Gonna periodically report here every week so that I start disciplining myself and having a stronger Intent to stay with something for a longer time. Otherwise I just feel not accomplishing anything.
What you think you are might not be true - always.