I had a lovely reply ( from Lena
) to one of my meditation postings in the " Past Lives " thread , that seemed more relevant to this thread here. So I am moving my reply to it here ..
Currently, my thinking is that a main goal of the meditation should be toward a search and discovery of my "real self" as an identity apart from PMR- Brian , the avatar and actor here. Would such an endeavor be helpful in any way toward the goals that Linda has posted and direct us more toward spiritual growth.. and than if not, what might be the benefit thru meditation of this identification of my "real self " ?
Brian50, I can share my experience. This is a very basic approach. First and foremost you need to learn about who you are according to your current experience. Everything is equally important, therefore you should not dismiss some small or insignificant details. They could be a key to exploration of your thoughts, feelings and emotions. Accept anything you are able to learn, and remember - this is a difficult process. Don't assume anything, don't judge yourself, don't praise yourself either.
Take whatever you have become aware of and learn to live gracefully with it. Don't jump to any conclusions and be prepared to feel very unhappy about what you have learned. Your unhappiness is your ego talk, and it is OK. You don't push yourself to become better and don't discount who you are, since this is also only the ego defense tactic to make you feel better about yourself and quit a whole process. Our ego is a product of our fear. We live with it and don't know anything better. We've got to trust our ego, because we believe that it is us. While our fear is a part of us, we can become free of fear, reduce our ego and entropy.
This is a starting point. It takes as long as it could take, there is no time frame and no need to be in a rush. Take it easy, it doesn't matter if it is slow or fast, let it unfold at your own comfortable pace. You are learning about yourself. This is an extremely important step in understanding yourself and MBT as well. You as a part of LCS becoming aware of who you are, therefore understanding of who you are is a necessary base to become aware of a bigger picture, MBT and etc.
it is quite interesting you decided to offer your advice and reply to me on this.
I had woke up this morning again wondering when I am going to make my return to meditation :)
I am going to use your kind advice as my anchoring point in getting RE; Started with the meditation later today after work .
Thank you for your thoughtfulness + wonderful posting on this !
I had another topic on QOC
i wanted to post about. But I will do this in a separate posting..