I am still trying to figure this all out.
Just about every non physical experience I have is sexual now days. And I am not a very sexually driven person so it is very strange.
But it doesn't feel derogatory. I feel that feeling of romantic love, like I have an angel or demon wife lol not sure very strange. There isn't any logical consistency to figure out what is going on. The persona is always presented differently. But it all started from one experience, where I meet someone and It was like I have known forever and I vowed to marry them.
I just realized the key to the non physical is all about emotional truth not coherency. It was perplexing me how I can have and feel affection for something I don't intellectually know or could define.
Last night I had shrooms at a lake and listened closely to emotional truths and had some epifannys.
1. Crying is the shedding of beliefs that processed complex emotion.
2. Love can't be something you can locate.
3. Family is the best analogy for consciousness structure
4. I have a contract/Marriage with god, that which is good what have you.
I am not great at trusting emotional knowledge. I am still skeptical that sexuality is a latching mechanism for good or bad. Some kind of merging tool. Still not sure to what extent the experience are thought form based.
I can't intellectually figure it out or what the surging energy is that accompanies the experiences, but if I did just trust how I feel. I feel longing for this unkown non physical wife!?!?
The surging energy in my own experience was a “vibration”. It was very intense. I liken it to being in a rocket ship on take-off. This sensation abated for me after several such experiences. I soon learned to “phase out” of this PMR and into another data stream. My friend Martin_AU, on this forum, has researched this energy surge at great length, I suggest you PM him for further explanation.
I went through a period where I had frequent sexual days in NPMR (non-physical). Tom, Monroe, and Bardon, to name a few, have mentioned this NPMR phenomenon. There is a data stream (lower astral) that is specific to sexuality and other emotions and apparently some of us go there during the transition (death). During my OB exploration I found myself suddenly drawn there. Monroe goes into this in detail. I was confused by it but eventually decided to accept it. I stopped being drawn there not long after I accepted it. However, there is also an NPMR entity that has an enduring and loving relationship with me like a “soul mate”. I too want to understand this relationship.
During my OB exploration, I phased into a loving relationship but did not connect it to the soul mate until your post. Recently, I began to reach out to my “higher self” (IUOC) and search for a more detailed explanation of the connection we share. I read your post and went back to my research, meditated and stumbled onto an explanation (more than likely the LCS at work) to our shared desire.You may have heard Tom (and others) state that we are multi-dimensional beings: I am an FWAU, a fragment of an IUOC. The other “dimensional beings” of me are FWAUs, fragments of the same IUOC. Although they are me, they are not me. They are independently creating their own reality and making their own choices. But as I am an IUOC within this FWAU, I am all of these other FWAUs. This is the confusing part of the IUOC/FWAU phenomenon.
The “soul mate” could be a different IUOC. One of our other “dimensional beings” (FWAUs) has probably created an enduring relationship with the subject IUOC/soul mate. Since we have awakened to the “greater reality”, and peeled back the veil, this soul mate relationship in another “dimension” “bleeds through” and manifests within our PMR/NPMR experience. There are other possible explanations for example it could be our IOUC (higher self) or the LCS but this is the explanation that manifested after I read your post.