Hi Ndubueze,
I'm very sorry that you are going through this experience. I will be honest with you.
It will be difficult for your situation to improve, without outside assistance.
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So according to the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) technically speaking I’m a schizophrenic. Doctors will not have a clue or have a knowledge to critically analyse my situation, I’ll be treated as a schizophrenic and medicine will be given to me if I ever happened to visit a doctor to overcome my situation." -Zanr
Your story is a textbook example of schizophrenia, and that is the answer to "And I have been cracking my head to find the truth behind this life experience". Psychiatric doctors
will in general have a clue, and have knowledge to analyse your situation, and help you. They have helped many others going through what you are going through.
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What makes people to deny after they actually doing certain things, participating on certain things? Why they indirectly say things or drop hints about my life events every day and then keep denying it? Every time my complaints became a surprised to them, so I finally ended up in talking about it with anyone, cause literally there’s no point. And then I ended up talking to my friends too cause now I don’t trust anyone. I thought they lie to my face again and again. Friends still called me like they knew nothing but I don’t have an interest in talking to my friends anymore because of my experience.
Your friends are denying these things because they did not happen, it's a part of the illness. Isolating yourself from friends and family will not improve your situation, but worsen it.
It is totally
okay to be treated as a schizophrenic and be given medicine to reduce the symptoms, and get your life back. Do visit that doctor to overcome your situation.
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Thank you. What are some things you do to lower entropy or improve your life?
I can guarantee you that "I ever happened to visit a doctor to overcome my situation." will be the most lowering entropy choice you can make now, and likely for your whole life during this incarnation. We mostly evolve through the feedback-cycle of Intent -> Action -> Consequence, but that feedback-cycle does not apply to you fully while you experience these symptoms. The logical connection between your intent, your actions and the consequences is broken, as the data you receive and interpret as Ndubueze does not accurately reflect reality. Sainbury is right that one way to describe it, is that you are (because of the illness) interpreting information in a fearful way.
I am rooting for you, Ndubueze.