What do you think Shin?
I think great minds think alike lol ;) you hit the nail on the head.
Being a bit of a romantic I like the idea of "the One" or "Twin Flames" (really like that), but keep putting the cart before the horse. The wonderful part is the journey, not so much the destination. The sharing of the long walk is where it's all at.
The above anime got me thinking... The main character is much like me, a recluse that's afraid to go outside, and yes I've had similar moments. What caught my attention was the development with his friend that he hasn't seen in years. They decide to make a game, and his task is to write the script for it. It reminded me of my friend and I writing together many many years ago. He eventually got a small press comic book going for a short wile, but I never did anything. I'm much like my Grandfather who tries to do everything himself, by himself. But that's the problem, I miss out on the sharing of the experience, even if it's bad. Isn't that what a relationship is, that of sharing? To work with my friend and finally write a novel regardless if it's great or plain sucks. To find someone who is willing to walk the path of truth with me no matter how much it hurts. What a great journey, and experience that can... will be. This really isn't just about the love interest of a woman for me, but that of all my relationships.
Thanks Ted. You and Tom make a great team. You tend to have a poetic side, wile Tom is more analytical from my point of view... very useful to me. :)
Sorry about the ramblings, broke down and had a few beers. The rest is not important.
It was 46 years before I met mine, and we both knew right away.
Our friend Storker points to something, that being we shouldn't be in such a rush. I couldn't wait to turn 18, get out of school, and get married. But all those relationships ended badly. Didn't care who it was as long as she was pretty, and of coarse the feelings of love only helped to mask the haphazard approach to this thing I was after. Being 36 I get this feeling "man your getting old, you better do this now if your going to do it at all", but I realize it's just a PMR thing. Ashamed to say that I was still in a physical way of thinking. People, no matter the age, find happiness in anything as long as it is shared.
Yes I'm afraid of a relationship. It's do in part from past experience, and reinforced by others. My parents divorced. My Dad ended up getting divorced from his second wife, now creditors are after him because of her credit problems. Been a best man at two weddings. The one has three kids, but I found about the third one via my mom who saw it in the paper. There was some things that happened at his wedding that I keep to myself, not involving me so much as I just witnessed it. This relationship, from my point of view, was so bad at times that eventually I told him about my discomfort around his family. Guess what I said wasn't to tactful, and he neglected to tell me about his third child. So I'm guessing that relationship is done, sadly to say because he was such a good person in a really bad place. My other friends wife hated me, and we use to fight quite often, but then things smoothed over, and you know what... they get divorced lol all that work for nothing. So now he's been looking for the next one. He finally found someone that we both thought was going to be "the one". Shortly there after she just walks away from him like nothing happened... I couldn't believe it, how cruel. He keeps looking, and so I give him crap about it jokingly, but do hope that he does find someone special. The world needs more good relationships imo. To make a long story longer, the relationship case is about the same for everyone I know, but a few. My two uncles, a coworker, and a friends bother are all the great relationships I know of. The rest, many many, don't tend to last and exist in a bad way. So now you know why I don't chase after someone.
So my ideal woman would be a dyslexic, slob, that wants to develop meditating skills, and follow the path of Truth lol.
If anyone has read this fully, you get all my gold stars :P